Not so bad

I'm not nearly as sore today as I thought I would be. Unlike Lorra no new bruises have appeared, but then again I don't bruise easily. My back is getting itchy though, I think it is going to peel. My face, on the other hand, is doing alright. The gallons of aloe I put on it yesterday seems to have done the trick. Well, not entirely, my nose will peel, but that's not so bad. I just didn't want my whole face peeling, that looks absurd. The only other noticable injury was my right knee. It got a bit of a twist in one of my aborted attempts at standing later in the day and while it doesn't hurt to walk I noticed it when I was dancing last night.

On the flip side, however, things that have been sore for weeks feel great now. My back, aside from the burn, feels great. Even the ache in my right hand from the mouse is gone. Surfing is good.

It never ends

Well, my lease is up this month and the landlords just faxed over my new lease. My rent is going up. There goes another $54 dollars a month. Sigh.

It's perfectly reasonable, of course. And it wasn't unexpected. That still doesn't mean I have to like it.

D'oh

So I made a bunch of entries today and forgot my offline LJ disc at work. Come back tomorrow evening for today's posts.

And in other news, I took the test du jour:

Disorder              Rating
Paranoid:              Low 
Schizoid:              Low
Schizotypal:           Low 
Antisocial:            Low 
Borderline:            Low
Histrionic:            Low 
Narcissistic:          High
Avoidant:              Low
Dependent:             Low 
Obsessive-Compulsive:  Low

As suspected, I am mentally healthy, other than being an arrogant bastard .

Dollmaker

Yummy

So I was playing with the dollmaker that Trish posted. I am such a frou-frou geek sometimes, playing dress-up with dolls! As you can see I made myself a perfectly cute little goth girl .

Anyone who happens to resemble this picture is perfectly welcome to contact me !

I am dumber than dirt

I spent the last two weeks thinking that Ivana didn't want to talk to me anymore because she never got back to me after I asked her out to dinner. So here I am not mentioning it, pretending not to be hurt and talking myself into crushes. Well, it turns out that she thought I was to get back to her and it was I who did not want to talk to her.

Every time my MSN messenger made a login bloop for the last two weeks I would run across the apartment to see if it was a message from her. Then I would try to convince myself that I wasn't disappointed when it wasn't. The phone would ring and I would hope it was her and it never was. Yet all the while she isn't calling because she thinks I don't want to hear from her.

So now I am just plain confused. I just spent two weeks intentionally not mentioning her or thinking about her. Now I'm second-guessing all of my feelings. I had almost sold myself on a different life, the one without her. And I don't know what she wants. I don't know what I want.

Somebody just kick me in the head and knock some sense into me. Please.