mbarrick | I really should find something better to do with my spare time.

I SEE: things at face value.
I NEED: nothing more than anyone else.
I FIND: I forget the above from time to time.
I WANT: to relax.
I HAVE: artificial problems imposed by other people.
I WISH: I had a Guinness.
I LOVE: my kitties.
I HATE: that I don't do more.
I MISS: care-free summers when I was younger.
I FEAR: homelessness.
I FEEL: a dull ache in my right shoulder.
I HEAR: my conscience chiding me for wasting time on this.
I SMELL: stale coffee.
I CRAVE: fresh coffee.
I SEARCH: for real happiness.
I WONDER: all the time.
I REGRET: marrying the wrong person.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU...

SMILED?: A few minutes ago when Evilyn messaged me.
LAUGHED?: Last night, watching "This Hour has 22 Minutes"
CRIED?: A few weeks ago, I won't say why.
BOUGHT SOMETHING? Yesterday, a doughnut at work.
DANCED?: Last Sunday at Sanctuary. Daevina made a big deal of it again ;-)
WERE SARCASTIC?: Who me? Sarcastic? p-sha!
KISSED SOMEONE?: A week ago Thursday.
TALKED TO AN EX?: Last Sunday at Sanctuary.
WATCHED YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE?: Last week.
HAD A NITEMARE?: About thirty years.

A LAST TIME FOR EVERYTHING.......

LAST BOOK YOU READ: "The Martians", by Kim Stanley Robinson
LAST MOVIE YOU SAW: "So I Married an Ax Murderer"
LAST SONG YOU HEARD: Vicious Pink, Fetish
LAST THING YOU HAD TO DRINK: A coffee.
LAST TIME YOU SHOWERED: This morning
LAST THING YOU ATE: A pepperoni stick last night.

DO YOU...

SMOKE?: Occasionally.
DO DRUGS?: Not anymore.
HAVE SEX?: Yes.
SLEEP WITH STUFFED ANIMALS?: No.
LIVE IN THE MOMENT?: I remember the past, live in the present and plan for the future.
HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?: Sort of. Not really. I don't know. Why is nothing simple?
HAVE A DREAM THAT KEEPS COMING BACK?: No recurring dreams.
PLAY AN INSTRUMENT?: No. I have no musical talent.
BELIEVE THERE IS LIFE ON OTHER PLANETS?: How could there not be?
REMEMBER YOUR FIRST LOVE?: Too often.
STILL LOVE HIM/HER?: Who she was, yes. I don't know her now.
READ THE NEWSPAPER?: There are no good newspapers anymore.
HAVE ANY GAY OR LESBIAN FRIENDS?: Yes. And a lesbian ex-wife.
BELIEVE IN MIRACLES?: No. That necessarily requires a belief in some higher power to orchestrate the miracles.
BELIEVE IT'S POSSIBLE TO REMAIN FAITHFUL FOREVER?: Yes.
CONSIDER YOURSELF TOLERANT OF OTHERS?: Only when they aren't fucking morons.
CONSIDER LOVE A MISTAKE?: Love no. Lust can be.
LIKE THE TASTE OF ALCOHOL?: Most kinds. Not all.
HAVE A FAVORITE CANDY?: I like so many types of candy I can't pick.
BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?: To a limited extent.
BELIEVE IN MAGIC?: No.
BELIEVE IN GOD?: No.
PRAY?: To whom? See above.
GO TO CHURCH?: Why?
HAVE ANY SECRETS?: Yes.
HAVE ANY PETS: Tharsis and Jazz, my kitties!
DO WELL IN SCHOOL?: I did. I'm done with that now.
GO TO OR PLAN TO GO TO COLLEGE?: I did. When I retire I will go back. I intend to spend my old age collecting impractical degrees.
HAVE A MAJOR?: A majored in visual art.
TALK TO STRANGERS THAT INSTANT MESSAGE YOU?: No.
WEAR HATS?: I wear my black toque when it is cold.
HAVE ANY PIERCINGS?: No. I refuse to.
HAVE ANY TATTOOS?: No. I used to consider it. Now I wouldn't.
HATE YOURSELF?: No. Only hate what I haven't done.
HAVE AN OBSESSION? Only little ones that come and go.
HAVE A SECRET CRUSH?: Yes.
DO THEY KNOW YET?: No!!
COLLECT ANYTHING?: I've collected coins. I've been thinking of taking it up again.
HAVE A BEST FRIEND?: Yes.
WISH ON STARS?: Yes, an old habit. It never works.
LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?: Yes. I get random compliments from strangers on my handwriting.
HAVE ANY BAD HABITS?: A few. I hide them.
CARE ABOUT YOUR LOOKS?: Yes and no. I like to look good but I am not obsessive about it.
BELIEVE IN WITCHES? I have dated several.
BELIEVE IN SATAN?: No.
BELIEVE IN GHOSTS?: Yes.