Ya know what?

[mbarrick]

I was thinking things couldn't get any shittier, yet somehow they have. Several times throughout the day now I have started a post that just another variation on the same whinge. I don't know what the fuck I am doing. I'm deeply and seriously confused. I'm not eating properly. I'm not sleeping properly. I can't get anything done. I'm completely freaking miserable, depressed, angry, frustrated, and, yes, even scared.

There is a blackness in me right now that is a whole lot darker "goth". I don't know what to do about it, or with it. If I could be any more vehemently ambivalent about fucking well EVERYTHING I'm sure I'd burst apart from it.

Comments

booze & bacon help

[kitsune-13.livejournal.com]

They do ya know..it's a cure all.

Sorry I haven't been up for lunch lately (job hunting & now sick as dog ..still broke too)

Are you still interested in snagging some of those boxes??

you know what, I'm right with you

[thomasrymour.livejournal.com]

Hey - the same shit is happening with me right now too. Just a different story - I can't see how things could get any shittier. I'm essentially homeless, carless, jobless, and my relationship has some pretty fucked up situations in it. I don't know what the fuck I'm doing either and deeply/seriously confused in everything. I'm misearble, depressed, angry, frustrated and scared right there with you. What the fuck is going on?

Hang in there. I am. We can only hope it will all get better.

Blessings sent your way of whatever I've got to send,
Leaf

Re: booze & bacon help

[mbarrick.livejournal.com]

S'OK. I've been sick with the same thing. Yeah, I'm still interested in snagging boxes. Tomorrow I'm flying to Williams Lake for the day for work so I'll have the car with me. I can stop by on the way home (about 4:30-ish) and grab them. I'll call when I'm on the way. Also, do you have the super's phone number (and her name... Janice? My memory is shot lately). I need to get my tenancy agreement signed.

Re: you know what, I'm right with you

[mbarrick.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

Just remember, "Sometimes nothing is a pretty cool hand."

Re: booze & bacon help

[uberbabe.livejournal.com]

I got a stack of empty boxes here that you can have if you need more, I think I have 8 or so?

Oh the black, blackness of my heart.

[sleeplessknight.livejournal.com]

You and me both, everyday seems to get shittier.

We should start some kind of a club or group or something... like some kind of a 'darker than goth' club. ^_~

Okay...

[deckards-sixth.livejournal.com]

1. Stop thinking things can't get any worse, 'cause the universe sometimes delights in showing you that they CAN.

2. *HUG* You sound like you really, really need it.

It will get better. It just sucks right now.

[seymour-glass.livejournal.com]

well my only advice is to say you've made it this far, and i'm sure that's been through some shitty times...and during those times i'm sure each seemed like it would never end or get better...life oscillates, we ride highs and lows...but one day you reach a plateau and things ride smoothly for some time...and hopefully from there you climb higher...it's all a part of self, the dark side as well as the light side...it's just shitty that when it starts heading south it always seems to compound exponentially...is this merely because we have a heightened awareness towards our obstacles and disappointments during these times??? for when all is well we just gloss over those tough situations and they disappear rather quickly...when things are sour they leave a much more bitter taste in our mouths...and perhaps it is all just due to the anticpation of heading back out into the unknown again, a new start and beginning...it seems to be more daunting as we get older, we are more easily tempted by security...but someone such as yourself who has so much talent and personality will soon find yourself enjoying that freedom and getting to know yourself once again...