Quo Vadis

[mbarrick]

Rather than look back on the year that was I'd rather look at the year ahead. I'm going into this year with a certain amount of anxiety. In this coming year my "day job" will only be bringing in half of what I've been earning the past few years, but it will only be taking less than half of my time. The thing is, what I had in mind a year ago when I started working toward this has changed. The idea of opening a store has fallen away as Elaine's online sales have increased. I'm making a moderate amount of money off my photography now and I have a moderate income from web programming work. Neither one of those income streams is particularly reliable at this point. I could build either or both to bring in more money, but that wouldn't make either any more reliable - I've already learned that lesson. They both collapse the instant I can't do the work for whatever reason. Somehow I need to build up something that satisfies me creatively and intellectually, but does not rely directly on my continuous effort to generate income.

My biggest problem has always been being a Jack of all trades and master of none. Whilet not really such a bad thing, it leads to a lack of focus and motivation. I bore easily. It's also led me down a few paths that I should have never bothered with - just because I can do something doesn't mean I enjoy it and want to keep doing it.