Confused and Holding

[mbarrick]

So Ivana phoned me invited me over both Saturday and Sunday and I had to decline both invitations for plans already made, in the case of Sunday plans with Shannon. I have no idea what I am doing or what I want. And frankly I don't even want to address these things right now. I want to defer everything until after NYC. I don't know why I expect some kind of epiphany to happen there, but I do. This isn't a vacation, this is a pilgrimage. Is that too much to expect? Am I fool for putting my life on hold for two months?

Comments

[bitogoth.livejournal.com]

i don't think so. two months sounds like a good time frame for friendships to be established or re-established... you're life isn't being postponed- you're just giving things time to develop. if someone is in such a rush that two months is too long, that might not be a good sign. but then again, you're talking to someone who isn't particuarly relationship-centered. :}

seattle was a big turning point for me in many ways- they're not joking when they say that travel is expanding. you many not have an epiphany per se, but it will definitely effect you, if not change you.

[mbarrick.livejournal.com]

The thing about Ivana is we have had this undefined thing going on now since last December. Things were really good for a while, then she got cold feet. Now I'm the one with cold feet. It's not that I don't really like her, it's just that after a couple months of trying really hard to get over her I'm not so sure now if I want to jump back in. Ugh. It's never simple.