Damn

[mbarrick]

Nostalgia is bad. I have this plan of putting most of my old photographs up on my website and was going to scan a bunch in last night. I pulled out my old photo albums and that's when I started to get bummed. My big mistake was looking through my wedding album. It just so happens I got an overdue notice from my lawyer yesterday for the money I still owe on the divorce (fortunately the due date is 3 days after I get paid so I will manage). Then walking home I saw someone who looked so much like my ex-wife that I found myself staring from across the street for a moment before I realized it wasn't her. And finally now I had an invitation to a party next Saturday afternoon that in all likelihood she will be at. Fuck.

Maybe it is a good thing. I miss who she was, who she pretended to be. But whenever I see her in person I end up hating her all over again. Maybe it is time for a booster shot. Five minutes in the same room with her and I am good for another couple of years.

If I unambiguously had a girlfriend I wouldn't mind so much. It's when I am alone that I start thinking stupid thoughts. And - I may as well fess up to it - it would be a lot easier to face her girlfriend if I had one of my own.

Stupid, fucked-up life. Maybe I'll get lucky and get hit by a bus... oh, wait... they're on strike. Just my luck...

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[opium.livejournal.com]

Fuckin' buses.
Yeah I'm all blah too.
Join theblah club.

Quothe Dayglo

[mbarrick.livejournal.com]

Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah

Arg. Fuck. Kill.

[sleeplessknight.livejournal.com]

I had a fascination of being hit by a speeding bus for the longest time. Mostly I get these obsesions while I'm waiting at a bus stop or something. This definitely wasn't healthy thinking. Maybe I still have this obsesion, but there aren't any buses for me to wait for for now.

I guess it was because I hated translink so much because they always seem to be late when I'm waiting and always early when I arrive at the bus stop just on time. Losing 3 hours a day to ride the bus up to SFU is a little bit irritating.

Oi! Do I ever understand!

[mbarrick.livejournal.com]

I did a Kits-to-SFU transit commute for four years. An hour and a half there, and hour and a half back. Ever miss the last bus off the hill? That's a lot of fun. And cold days are always the worst because I you have to get all bundled up to not freeze at the bus stop, then you get on the bus and diver has the heat turned up to to "Lybia" and you can't undo your coat because there is nowhere to sit and the driver is practicing Morse code on the gas and brake so you don't dare let go.