A Really Sucky Night

I cannot begin to express how utterly nauseating (in a Sartrean sense) and miserable tonight was. She gave back the ring and I lost my composure. Grown man crying time. Never a pretty sight. I fucked this up. Why? Because I am a mess. I am Rip Van Winkle before his nap. I'm Woody Allen. I am completely oblivious as to what I really want out of life and I drag people along from the ride as I make one fuck up after another. I am, in fact, so pathetic that I suck up for sympathy in my blog.

I really need to get my head screwed on straight.

I was afraid of this

With so much unhappy distraction I have made a $3000 mistake at work. Ask me how much I want to deal with this now. -->Insert Charlie Brown "Aaaugh" and "I can't do anything right" here <--